Archive for November, 2008

Learn About Life Through Fiction

I’m taking a Fiction Workshop this semester and I am learning a lot about life through it.  First of all, while writing about my characters, I dig into them, and in a sense dig into myself.  I put feelings/actions into my characters just as I would myself.  It’s weird…to make something up and just “roll with it” as I like to say.  It’s something different and I like it!


My professor gave me some advice about one of my stories and it really hit home with me personally.  She said to give my character a “driving force”…something that drives them.  She said that we all have something in our life that pushes us along and drives us to keep going.  It could be power, money, fame, love, etc.  So what is it that drives me?


I thought about it a long time and I think…really think it’s love. 


Love for God.

Love for Brent.

Love for my family.

Love for my friends.

Love for myself.

Love for mankind in general.

Love for animals (yes, seriously…I do love them)

Love for the earth.

Love of food 🙂


I hope that this is what continues to drive me in life.  I don’t need power or want money (well, enough to survive I guess).  I don’t need fame.  I just want to love and to be loved!  It’s a powerful thing!

~241 days!!!!!!!~


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I officially will be graduating on May 10, 2009!  Yes, that’s right GRADUATING!!!!!  I faxed over my application for graduation and it was (to be completely honest) nerve racking.  I think it’s time to start thinking about job searching!


This morning I was getting ready to leave the house, and I was taking my daily vitamin, and I looked up at my board in my room where I hang pictures and what not.  First, there was a picture of my two brothers and me at Carson’s graduation (carson is my older brother).  We were all so skinny!  🙂  I had looonnngg hair and was really thin.  But that’s not what I wanted to talk about.  So there was this little pink square piece of paper and it had a note on it from my mom.


She wrote this (I remember it like it was yesterday) and put it on my night stand the night before my first day in college.  It said, “Courtney, I can’t believe my little girl is off to college.  You will do GREAT!  I am SO proud of you.  And I’m going to the grocery store, do you need anything?  Love you, Mom.”  🙂  I love my mommy!


It made me think a lot about the past years, and makes me think about the future even more.  I can remember being so nervous to start college.  I remember my first Comp class I had with Chris Ramsey, my Intro to Astronomy class that I took with Brent, so on and so on.  Crazy things.  I remember studying at Beaners (excuse me Bigby) with friends until they kicked us out.  I remember so many fun memories, and it’s making me sad that soon it will be time to grow up. 


I mean don’t get me wrong I am SO ready to graduate.  But when I graduate, there’s no “skipping class,” sleeping in, hanging out with friends until late in the morning, etc., etc.  I think my mind will settle once I get a job?  Once I know what I will be doing for maybe the next 5 years, I’ll be content.  But this element of surprise, this I have no clue what to do is scaring me.


Here’s what I know.

-May 10, 2009 is graduation day.

-July 11, 2009 is wedding day.


And that’s it.  Hopefully God will lead me down a path to figure out what the heck I’m supposed to do.


Until then, I’m nervous.  I think I’m going to go eat my banana now!  🙂

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Christmas Music!

Okay, anyone who knows me knows that it takes everything inside of me to wait until after Thanksgiving to start listening to Christmas music.  Well….I don’t have to, thanks to 101.5 The River!  At the top of every hour, they play 2-3 Christmas songs just to tease us before Thanksgiving.  Then after Thanksgiving, it’s ALL CHRISTMAS MUSIC!!!!! 


Last night I called my  mom as soon as I turned on the raido and heard it.  I sang to her, and she laughed at me….OH!, and Brent will be soooo annoyed once he finds out!  🙂


If you just CAN NOT WAIT, you can go to and listen to Christmas music commercial free anytime!  Yay!



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Today I heard friends in class, people on the news, and many others excited that their choice for our future president.  I wasn’t being a sore loser (yes, I voted for McCain), I wasn’t weeping.  I didn’t get up this morning and riot as the TPD thought would happen if Obama didn’t win.  I didn’t mope around today in class.  I didn’t rip posters off the light poles around campus.  I didn’t scream at my friends in class, or my fiance who is a democrat…


I decided today to sit back and listen.  Here’s three quotes that I heard (one of which I responded to)


#1 – “F*** McCain.  I’m so f****** glad Obama won.  I f****** hate McCain.” 


#2 – (After I voiced who I voted for, because I’m not ashamed…freedom…do you know that word?)  “You voted for McCain?  Well what do you know…a black man making a white man look like s***”


#3 – “I voted for Obama because if I didn’t, I was afraid my black friends would think I was racist.”


Freedom…yes, they have their freedom of speech.  I respect that, and choose my own words very wisely.  I don’t respect 90% of the people I know who voted for Obama.  Not BECAUSE they voted for him, but their reasoning behind it.  Obama — are these the people you really want representing / supporting you?  Rude, ignorant, fearful? 


I’m not afraid of Obama — I’m afraid of his followers, and what they will do to get their way.


I’m afraid that people are going to take their freedom for granted / take advantage of it.  But most of all, I’m afraid freedom is going to be taken from us.


“Freedom is never more than one generation away from extinction. We didn’t pass it to our children in the bloodstream. It must be fought for, protected, and handed on for them to do the same, or one day we will spend our sunset years telling our children and our children’s children what it was once like in the United States where men were free.”
– Ronald Reagan –
– 40th president of US (1911 – 2004)


Mostly, I hope we can all grow up (this includes Obama supporters) and unite together as a country.  I hope that we can stand up for our rights and our freedom, and not be swoon by smooth talking.  I hope Obama brings the change he promised…

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I’m a compulsive “list-maker”

So I like to make lists…goals if you will.  I make them sometimes at night before I go to bed so that I can know what I need to get done the next day.  I make them for the weekend, the wedding, etc., etc.  I guess it’s to keep me sane.  The act of crossing something off my list is very theraputic!  And if I do something that’s not on the list, I add it to the list just so I can cross it off.


Anywho, I’m having surgery the third week of December.  Here’s what I want to have accomplished by then… (So I have 6 weeks).


(In no particular oder)


**Visit Hilary in Columbus

**Organize my room

**Get ALL of Brent’s laundry done

**Get my ring cleaned

**”Spring clean” (or fall clean) my mom’s house since that’s where I’ll be staying

**Get Nina groomed

**Book 3 catalog show’s for December, and 4 for January (Pampered Chef)

**Book a photographer for the wedding

**Finish the semester strong! (doubtful, but it’s a goal)

**Work like a slave until then since I can’t work for 6 weeks after

**Have some sort of Christmas party/get-together

**Get school stuff organized for next semester

**Lose some weight if I find time 🙂


Okay, I’ve got lots to do!!  This is why I make lists.  Some things might not get done, but at least I know what my goals are.

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